PREPRATION

Dreaming..
Thats what i do most of my time
from  dusk to dawn


it makes me feel sick sometimes
at other times it feels great


with headset on both my ear
with rap song playing at top most level
i find peace...


or do i dream

thoughts flash across my mind
dreaming of owning a Ferrari to ducat i 


i got up at 2am in the morning
with a sole purpose to study
it's  now 2 pm and still i haven't taken my books


ask me how many times i heard a rap of linkin park today
thats what i did all day


every time i am about to study 
i wanted to fix my past
to heal my past
a past i have wounded


i could have saved
but still , i stood aside and watched it crumble


now , i shall rise from those very ashes 
for i leaned , i have only me to take care of
none else 


i have no idea where to begin 
may be in another post i shall write